194.2
I'm up a little from last week. Only about a pound though. That's not too bad, considering that I haven't been tracking my meals. MB and I have also eaten out a lot this week. That's never good.
I walked with the pup a few times this week. I also did a significant amount of manual labor via yard work. That sh*t is hard work!
It's totally worth it though. My front yard went from a Jungle of Doom to this...
Now, we have to tackle the rest of the Jungle of Doom that is my back yard. Ugh.
Anyweigh, even with the gain and the rut that I've been in with my BLitz, I still feel pretty good. I know I'm fat and I want to lose the weight. However, I feel more comfortable in my own skin than I have in a really long time.
Maybe that's why I'm in a rut. I feel good so I don't feel the urgency to make those changes. It's a weird cycle, this weight loss thing. I want to be thinner and healthier so I can feel better about myself, but I'm feeling better about myself even though I'm not thinner and healthier.
I have to realize that getting thinner and healthier is only going to make me feel better. I can't get stuck because then, I will never get to my goal. Then, I will hit that wall that eventually comes when I realize that I'm still fat and haven't met my goal and what the hell have I been doing all this time...
...this journey is full of insanity. (sigh)
Anyweigh, I'm going to be tracking again this week, because it really does help me maintain focus throughout the week. I'm also going to make an exercise schedule for the week. There may only be a couple days that I can work out, given my work schedule for the week.
I'm on night shift this week and MB and I are looking at wedding places tomorrow. I have an eye appointment Thursday and I'm going to see my Mom over the weekend. I've got a busy week ahead, but I can do this.
Planned meals. Daily tracking. Slim in 6 on Friday, Saturday and Monday along with more manual labor in the yard when I can fit it in.
So, how has your week been?
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