It's been a couple weeks since I officially hit the scale. I'm pleasantly surprised by my numbers this week.
192.6. I'm down 0.6 pounds. That may not seem like much, but at least it's going in the right direction.
I've been doing a lot of stress eating this week. There's been stress at work. Stress with money. Stress with fatness. The usual. Plus, it's been bitter cold and I haven't felt like going out for a walk or anything.
I'm kinda in a rut with my exercise and I'll tell you what I think is going on there. You see, I had been running and doing really well not so long ago. Remember that? I was feeling really good about myself.
When I went to a friend's wedding and had to stuff myself into a cute little dress (with spanx, of course), I actually felt great. I felt good which made me feel like I looked good. I had some self confidence for the first time in a really long time.
Until I saw the picture of myself at said wedding. Ugh. It was brutal. I looked horrible. How could that be possible? I felt so good. Yet, I still looked like a big fat gross person. Now, I can't get that image out of my head and I'm kinda feeling like 'what's the point?'.
I know what the point is though. I know that feeling good about myself is important. I know that I was doing really well and if I keep it up, I'll get even better results and I won't see that big fat gross person there anymore because she'll be skinny and not so gross. I know all of these things.
But, I am having trouble getting over all the self doubt and disgust associated with the big fat gross person I saw in the picture and still see in my head. I know that I will get over it. I know that.
I've already started getting back on track with my planning and eating. The exercise will come. My plan is to try and do 2 days of slim in 6 and 2 days of walking the trails this week. I think if I just get my big fat gross self out there, I'll start to get out of this funk a little.
My eating this week will be on track. I'm planning healthy meals. I'm increasing my fruits and veggies and I will be tracking every day this week.
So, how do you overcome those slumps where self doubt and negativity try to take over?